I had an interview yesterday. Don't ask me how it went, I have no idea. I was so ridiculously nervous that I felt like I could have puked and I came out of it with an uneasy feeling, sort of like I messed it up terribly. Although at my last interview I had a really good feeling about it and never heard another word from them, so perhaps it was actually a good sign.
I'm growing increasingly interested shopping for a church. I've always wanted to have a church that I could call mine, but with bouncing back and forth between towns for school, home, and whatever else it didn't really seem to work out. Now, I'm still bouncing back and forth between towns quite frequently, but I feel like I would actually be able to commit now. The hard part is deciding where to start and getting the guts to actually do it.
Finding a job, being able to move out, and making all of the decisions that go along with that are still wearing heavy on my heart and mind, but I'm trying to enjoy each day between now and then because I'm sure it's going to get harder before it gets easier.
I suck at striking up random conversations; I always have, and lately it seems to be challenging me greatly. It seems like it is what I need to be able to do in order to make some friendships work because speaking from my heart about feelings and thoughts just gets me in trouble. But then I struggle with understanding why I have to change for friendship, is it truly friendship then?
Hope is faith holding out its hand in the dark. ~George Iles
1 comment:
Wow.. I've got to say I enjoy this blog... I'm glad you are going to try and find a church.. I will be praying.. You will find the right one for you.. it might take some time but you'll do well i'm sure!
Also good thinking about trying not to worry about things and just enjoy everyday as best you can.. that's all you can do. Things will get better I promise!
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