As the days push forward I begin to see doors closing. I once had so much hope and confidence and I feel like it's starting to shrink. I have this picture in my head of how things would ideally work out and I'm trying so hard to come up with every alternative plan possible in order to reach that perfect picture. The picture is starting to seem completely unreasonable. Should I paint a new perfect picture? I want to keep pushing on but I'm running out of options, I'm running out of places to push. I'm not okay with just waiting to see what comes up, I need to be active in making things happen. I think that's why I had so much hope and confidence before because I was busy working on things, but now I search online and I try to come up with new ideas and I'm out. I'm not sure what else there is that I can do, but I have to find something. Also do me a favor and hold all of the "It'll be Ok's".