How do you know when something is right?
I often ask myself this question. Am I making the right decisions? Lately this question has been at the top of the list. Mainly because I have many decisions that lie ahead of me, none of which I have an answer to at the moment. I know that I made the right decision by getting my degree in Early Childhood Education, and I believe that I made the right decision to not go to Grad School right away. Part of me believes (maybe just because i want it to be the truth) that I was lucky enough to student teach in Kindergarten (which Bluffton never lets happen) because I am going to need that experience later on in life. I want more than anything for that later to be this coming fall, but who really knows.
I know that I have made the right decision when it comes to finding "the one" It is a feeling that truly cannot be replaced. There are no questions, you aren't wondering if it really is meant to be, you just know. Your life is better because of them and you can't imagine a day without them. They don't bring you stress, worry, or anger. I feel blessed to have found this so early in life. I am only 21, I have plenty of life ahead of me and I am more than thankful to be with such an amazing person already in life.
Then comes the unknown. How do you know where to work? Obviously at this point in the game if someone hands me a teaching job I'm going to take it. But what if I have to choose? What if I don't get a teaching job, where do i choose to sub and where do I choose to get a part time on the side job? Where do I live? Who do I live with? How do I explain my choices to everyone if they don't agree? I want so badly for it to all work out and I know everyone keeps saying don't worry it will, but will it really? No one can be sure. I hate the unknown, I hate waiting, I hate making decisions, and I hate explaining myself to people. For those reasons alone all of this scares the crap out of me.
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I wish that you could edit these things.. annoying.. but anyways here is the comment that was supposed to be up there in that comment deleted spot..
Funny.. we kinda blogged about the same thing.. haha..
On a more serious note.. Life is definitely not the easiest at this stage in life, but try to think about it as fun, its your turn to finally pick and choose what you want. If it doesn't work out, it's okay to switch things, believe me it makes life interesting!
I think it's safe to say that I am the lucky one in finding "the one" even tho I am the same age. I still think I got the better deal out of it. lol
As for you worrying. Its ok to worry sometimes about the future, so you can better prepare for it. I think you have done a lot of preparation. So... (and I know you have heard this but) don't worry to much.
Love you
xoxoxoxoxoxox
I think you will need that experience later on in life, and that you'll be grateful for it. Even if it doesn't come right away, that doesn't mean that it won't in the future. I know it all seems hard right now, but if you keep trying hard like you have been, it will all pay off.
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