Taking Five

In the last few days I have felt less stressed. I finally mailed out a handful of resumes (even though there aren't any open jobs..yet) and I've even received a couple of letters back from schools. I'm sure they are the standard "Thanks for your mail"letters that everyone gets, but it makes me feel like I'm finally doing something to put the job hunt in motion. I'm not just staring at websites anymore. I also for some reason have regained hope that maybe I do have a chance at finding a job. Maybe everything will fall into place and miraculously I will be employed. I think that loosing that hope is what led to my stress in the first place.

I also think that my stress was multiplied by trying to make everyone else's lives easy. I am constantly trying to keep everyone else happy and trying to stop arguments before they even happen and trying to solve arguments that did happen and frankly I'm not even involved in them. Why am I letting it be my issue? I feel like I'm give a mile and only getting inches in return. I'm pretty well done making everyone else happy. It's time to make me happy. It's time to let people fight their own battles.

Money is also a huge stress right now. I don't have much at all. Spending wise I'm pretty much done. I'm going to go back to my penny pinching days. No more eating out and random trips. Buy what you need and use what you have. Hopefully I'll be back on my feet in no time. Or at least mid-April.

So for now my solution is to keep my chin up, take care of myself, and take some time to enjoy the life that I have rather than living life for everyone else.