Fear: There are many things in life that I'm fearing at the moment. I'd say the underlying theme is failure though. Followed by disappointment. I want so badly to make something of myself and I know I will, but I also know that some people aren't so understand that it's going to take some time. It's pretty common that anyone over the age of 45 thinks that life goes as follows: graduate and get a job. It's not really that easy especially in today's job market. I want to jump into life and I want to get out on my own, but i am SO scared of failing. Everyone says I won't but no one knows that for sure, they're just telling me that to keep me calm.
Worries: I guess my worries are my fears, but more specific. I worry I won't find a job, I worry I won't find a place to live, I worry I won't be able to fill the place to live, I worry I won't be able to pay the bills, I worry I'll upset people and other random things.
Love: I can't even begin to ever tell Steven how much I appreciate everything he does for me. He has sat and talked with me so many times and helped calm me down so many times. Normally I keep things to myself and then one day I just explode, but we talk about it a lot and he doesn't let me off the hook. I need that otherwise I'd probably be dying from the stress. I've never had someone tell me that they were proud of me so often and tell me WHY. I need him in my life more than I could ever even express. He truly is a gift.
3 comments:
i know your worried about a lot of things, but i know you can do this.
oh and, your the gift.
Well.. how can I comment after such a comment as that? Anything I say is going to suck.. hahaha...
so I'll still try.. Every worry and every fear is a common one at the time you are in.. keep hanging in there and keep talking to steven.. Things will become more clearer soon.. :)
While you are right, no one may know for sure if you will succeed or not, from what I know of you, and from the work that I've seen you put forth, I do not, and can not believe that you will have trouble.
p.s. I kinda felt obligated to comment since everyone else did too haha, but meant every word all the same.
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