A while back (July 26th I believe ha ha) I posted this. It was something that I had made in one of my "postsecret" moments and I never knew it held the secret to my future. I said it all in this postcard. The reason my last relationship didn't work, and yet it took another four months to actually end. I've said it before and I'll say it again. I was holding onto a dream. Like the picture says I was hoping to hear the things I needed to hear to be happy and they never came. Why did I think that they would just all the sudden pop out of no where? Thinking about this I also start to wonder, at what point did I start t settle for this? I thought he was just being a typical man and that there aren't men who actually share those kinds of thoughts with people, but I was so wrong. I have these new friends. Both men and they tell me how they feel about things. We can discuss feelings. I dated him for 2.5 years and hid my feelings all the way along, until one day they would have built up so much that they would just explode like crazy. Why was this OK? Looking back I cannot believe the things that I dealt with. I cannot believe that I thought it was happily ever after. I guess that is what they meant when they said "You live and you learn".